Siansational.

That's the word. yeah.

I came to school and left at 9. ms chew showed baby doll after telling us about the exam format.

Oh ya, i broke my voice, i think ? joe was talking to me halfway when he just came to school when he realised my voice got deeper. i hope it's not true ! it means that i'm really maturing. next thing i know i'll start shaving.

And i lost 5kg. i'm 95 now. sick for one week and i lose 5kg. not bad not bad, i should get sick often, haha.

Shall I compare thee to a Summer's day?
Thou are more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And Summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd:

But thy eternal Summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st:
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

*i hope all my dreams will come true. thank you God for the friends i'm blessed with :)

HA. i'm blogging in the library now.

I skipped chinese to print history notes on the French Revolution. Actually no need wan la, i just wanna print so in the future no need to print liaoz. so sianz. i think i'll skip school tomorrow so jian lin can tutor me SEAian history. haiz. need to MUG. i'll just study hard for the next two weeks. i'm mugging like there's no tomorrow hahaz. I gotta do something about econs too. gotta at least have the fundamentals for econs. as for lit... i think i'll do fine. read up the importance of being earnest and long day's journey into night during the hols.

Damn i'm all alone in the lib. haha actually there's daniel. he just finished the prelims and got 61 for c maths. says it sucks. his girlfriend ailing got 97/100 for F maths. F Freaking Maths !!!! ouch. and i got an F9 for the O levels for A maths :) sigh. i'm not a maths person.

Library's full of people now... all mugging. cant stand this shit. M U G G I N G. after the promos i'm going out everyday. yeah. O U T. cant wait. :) but right now.... it's

M U G

Sigh. havent regained my appetite yet. havent been eating much at all ! actually it's quite good in a way, i'm saving lots of money each day. haha. i can spend like, 20 bucks in school alone in a week. i've never spent so much previously, only starting spending lots after coming to jc. oh wait, i think i didnt spend lots in MSHS was b'coz we used the cashcard machine in the canteen... haha before money can be deducted i'll just rip the card outta the machine, so i'd last a 40 buck cashcard for 6 mths. lol :P

Gosh. i was watching videos on Kobe. i really hope they drop the charges on 'im so that he'll play next season. he's really one inspiring player. it's the way he plays, i guess... he gives it all out for the thing he loves so much. do i ? i dont think so... sometimes i just wanna laze around, even for the things i love to do. that's really sad... i really should stop that. kat says i've become a bit more matured, but still frivolous. maybe it's really time i should mature. but being mature = being serious ? i cant stand being serious, it's just so BORING.

I think for the past few days since coming back to school i've been more serious, couldnt joke around. but i've been unhappier these days too. whyyyy... i dunno why... i'm finding my spark of life back... i hope i'll find it back soon... it's something i dont wanna lose forever...

School was boring today. the only funny thing happened was in the lt3 before morning assembly. haha was with joe and jianlin, we were at the back row and we kept kicking the supporting piece of wood of the bench and it came down with a really LOUD THUD. hahaha everyone stopped talking and turned around to look at us. joe covered his face, trying to supress his laughter, jianlin was going "uuuhhh..." and i was ready to walk away. wahaha.

And there you go. the interesting moment of the day. how boring can my life in school get ? c'mon man that's bull shit... it's JOEL and JIAN LIN i was with.

Mm mm mm. dalvin venket teck meng kenneth michelle pek choo didnt come. 6 people missing... ( 7 actually, but who cares ? bryan died. oh. i think he should act in final destination. bryan dies occasionally but he comes back to school the next day. ) chinese class was worse. adam sab daena kia yin cynthia and i were the only ones from our class, and only chun si and kareen came. the rest of 03a2 didnt even bother to come.

Aye. time to see my doc about my rashes. damn annoying. it's taking me everything NOT to scratch myself. ....... AIIEEEEEEEEEEEEE !!!!!!!!!!!

To Be With You - Mr Big

Hold on little girl
Show me what he’s done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can’t be that bad
When it’s through, it’s through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I’m the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you’ll feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
Wake up; who cares about
Little boys that talk too much?
I’ve seen it all go down
The game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

I’m the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you’ll feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Yeah, just to be the next to be with you

Why be alone when we can be together, baby?
You can make my life worthwile
I can make you start to smile

When it’s through, it’s through
Fate will twist the both of you
Come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to show you…

I’m the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you’ll feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Yeah, just to be the next to be with you

I’m the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you’ll feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Yeah, just to be the next to be with you

Just to be the next to be with you

Ooo.. i'm feeling much better than the past two days. :\ darn, i swear, i could've boiled an egg on my body. but i still havent regained my appetite, urgh... i'm still feeling a lil feverish.

I wanna study but i'm fighting hard not to fall asleep.. medicine's making me drowsssyyyy.... zzzz.... sigh gotta study now, and hope i dont fall asleep on my bed..

*why would life be like a broken pencil without you ?
'coz it would be pointless.

39.2

This was the temperature i got when i just got up from bed. was damn scary...!

38.0

At the doc's. major improvement, though it's still quite high. phew.. i tot it's SARS. scary :( after what happened to daryl (kareen's guy :P ) and his family and their close encounter with death, i've been real paranoid about high fevers. -phew-

Sigh i got MC for two days. i dun wanna miss school anymore, promos are coming !!! and there's also another reason why i wanna go to school... but... shan't say........... sigh. kat's been smsing me since GP. haha. i'm really lucky to have a friend like kat :) she's the only girl that i've known for a reasonable amount of time that i've never had a crush on ! well, our relationship has never gone beyond platonic :)

Oh crap. and i'm supposed to hand up the LEAP carnival registration forms by tomorrow. ARGH. have to go to school tmr. dun care if i spread my fever :X haha -evil-

Well, gotta study now... good thing about not going to school, u can do anything at home for the entire day.

I'm sick. urghh...

Haha today's chinese test was a-o-kay !

john sat beside me and kat was on my left. i copied the first three sections and i helped her get the answers for the Li Jie Wen Da. muahaha. john basically stoned, erm, its his basic function :P LT3 was cold ! even i felt it. my hands were almost numb.

Just came back from grace's bbq at her place. rich russ choon guan andy derrick kexing jayne youzhi, erm youzhi's friend, and two other girls came. ate A LOT. :S i'm damn full now. haha wasnt boring, 'coz grace had a guitar and we had rich and russ, and my voice. lol.

Urgh... gonna explode soon. ate way too much, even for me. i dont think i'll eat tomorrow.... not much, at least. haiiii and my right contact lense fell again. luckily happened when i got home. grrr.

Sian, not gonna blog much today. shall end right here...

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waiting on a line of dreams and blues
Just to be the next to be with you/
Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
I can make you start to smile

Okay this really sucks ?

I just logged into my blog for 4 seconds, and i completely forgot what i wanted to say. HAHA senile already.

Finished studying on Italy and Britain. haiz not enough ! promos in less than 3 weeks. gotta work hard la. at least till promos are over.

I wanna do the Haka for the LEAP carnival for my House, Viper. I dont care that there's no girls taking part. aiya i know the guys in my house and the other houses would be groaning and going : walaoooo why no girls for this cheerleading team wan... but sorry guys. haha. i want this year to be a little different. but what i'm worried is there'll be no time for everyone to gather one day to do the cheer, and i need joe to teach me. ( will u, dude ?? please ? ) and the other prob's that the cheer'll be quite short. only 1 min the max ? but time is running short... so have to do with it. haha.

-zipadeedooda zipadeeday, my oh my what a wonderful day-

Alright..........i'll be off then.

Didnt blog yesterday 'coz i was damn tired last night. i didnt even study, shit.

Well, Today, which is Friday, the sixth day of the week ( ahha :D some of you thought it's the fifth day eh ? well it's the SIXTH ! )

Today's sian. the only interesting thing was PE. PE's always fun :) we didnt play floorball today though, we did 6 rounds, through runs, jogs, walking :X and sprints. okay i think we ( me and guo wei ) walked one entire round, that's why we didnt realise we ran only 5 rounds ! only realised when weijie told us lol. okay, i'm definitely losing my fitness. what i had built up for like, 4 to 5 months of fitness is being steadily reduced. ARGH ! i think it's time i started making use of the school track or the gym.

Then, i was late for GP lecture, the indian teach wasnt happy with me, but i really dont care. lol. was quite ticked off, 'coz we have a mutual dislike for each other anyway. throughout GP, wrote lyrics of songs and talked cock with steven. joe came to school today and he looked okay, that's a good sign...

i skipped chinese again ! well this time i had a valid reason, i had to set up the registration booth at the canteen during common lunch break, which is at 12.20, but chinese is from 12.20 to 1, so of 'coz the registration thing came first :X was thinking that no one would come but suddenly a group of girls came. yay. but there were so few people in the canteen la, so the registration's extended till monday. but quite sucky, only girls came to register. what happened to the guys ? lessons maybe. people have been telling me that they see that i'm quite stressed out as house cap'n. but i am NOT ! it's quite fun actually. i dont see how people get stressed out by things. it's how you put and see it. i'm not a bryan chan. that guy'll crack under the lightest of pressures. maybe it's 'coz he retained la, and the aweful lot of crap his parents give him these days.

Okok... hmm.. now for YESTERDAY which is....




Wednesday.





Okay lame shit :D
it's THURSDAY

Watched Turn Left Turn Right with adam kenneth sab john weini daena and teck meng. it's really just a show about repetitions and the plot aint good, but it's a very touching show. so touching that sab cried twice :X hey, though i laughed out loud during the movie, i almost cried at the ending. Almost :) it's just bloody emotional and touching la i guess. Well, i kept thinking about her during the movie. yeah i'm a crazy sod. f*ck me. but i just cant help thinking of her all the time, can i ? it's one of those things in this world which i have absolutely no control of.

Then... went back to school with john. he went home, i did a bit of weights in the pe dept. i wanted to run but there were quite a few people running 'round the track. quite annoying. ha i'm selfish yeah, but i dont like running and carrying weights when there're people around. i was quite comfortable doing bench presses when the cap'n of the bball team came in and did some weights too. he's crazy, took one dumbbell and started lifting like there's no tomorrow. well, guess it was easy 'coz i think it's only the 5kg dumbbell. lol real dumb bell :D , that one. so i left the pe dept to him. grrr.... .................. hmm i dont carry weights regularly. the only reason why i did some ytd was 'coz the track was crowded, the bball courts were used by outsiders and the girls bball team, and the pe dept was the only place that had no one, until the dude came in.

Cina test tomorrow morn... SIAN ! but i really hope i do well for the As coming up in november. well enough to drop it by next year and to enter the U without taking extra cina lessons in the U ! sigh but got nothing to study for the test tmr... and i'm missing some kellet history lecture notes ! sigh. gotta study now. be back at 10...

Today's house meeting was crazy.

So the AVA was a bad idea for 200 people to attend a house meeting.

Mmm... we havent gotten our house tees yet. actually the purple colour for house Viper's the nicest ! at first i thought : What ? Purple ? then i saw the shirts pinned up on the notice board outside the PE Dept. purple looks so much better than black, grey and green. yuck ! what were they thinking ?! the colours they used last year were nicer.

Hai, i miss maris stella's houses. Francois, Alfano, Champagnat and Chanel. cool names huh.. haha i was from Francois, it started out as the loser house, but by my year it ended up as champion house. lol. i didnt realise that till i got the year book this year. i never took part in any event before ! though i've signed up for shot-put and javelin :X couldnt be bothered to take part :P oh, then there was this annual swimming carnival at YCK, but they stopped that after sec2. then there's always the marist youth day carnival. i miss that too. thats the only day of the year when we didnt need to wear the uniform !

There i go again. going into the past :> Maybe it's the college.

What's the college lacking ? Life. that's it. Life. what's life ?

Good question.

Shall think 'bout it before bed. Night.

Been depressed for the last two days.

But after talking to john ( some how i think he's the least likely person anyone would think of to talk to when they have problems ) during GP and after.

As much as people say john's a stoner, i think he's still one of the better guys in class. thiam peng ? he thinks our class sucks. brian liang ? he doesnt say it, but i can tell he's the same feeling for 03a1 as thiam peng. teck meng ? the guy's twisted. he's unoriginal. doesnt take a genious to realise he doesnt feel for the class either.

Kenneth, adam and bryan... they feel more for the class. ken and adam :P yea those two dudes definitely, bryan, yea sounds weird, but he's a sense of loyalty. he's loyal to NYJC. in our entire class he's the only one reciting the national pledge out loud. as for me ? i'm just... me. always making remarks and commenting on anything possible, and making people laugh by making a fool outta meself :P

Well, wanna blog more, but can't... sigh. you know, people really change ? i thought i could trust a friend. but the next moment a promise is broken. how sad is that ? i dont blame her. really. i just feel a little sad about it, that's all...
nighty night folks. House meeting tomorrow... STRESS

LOL i'm still laughing at the Frodo pic i got yesterday. i'm the centre of attention.. uh huh uh huh :D not too sure on that but i got the hardest job of the bunch ? what's the job anyway, and which bunch ? hmmmm after pondering i think the bunch is the NY ppl, and my job's to entertain 'em and make NY a lively place ? haha yep thats one heck of a job man. definitely the hardest thing u can do around here...

Oh just realised Frodo has really big doggy eyes ! and a big nose. he's really good looking, so dont think there's much of a comparison between me and him. besides, i think he's half my height and one quartz of my weight :P

Been watching blackadder in the afternoon before chi tuition. the english are the most disgusting and comical comedians on this planet man ! americans funny ? pale in comparison to the brits man... rowan atkinson is just a bloody genious. haha they're always insulting the french and the germans. cant blame 'em... them germans and french are their neighbours, guess it's like us singaporeans always making fun of malaysians eh ? but dunc's crazy, he got the entire Blackadder series online. it costs 100 us bucks !! which means its 170 sing dollars... but i think its cheaper. that day i was at HMV i saw it too. its like, 200 bucks ! dvds are damn ex man. :\ but anyway dunc's earning his own cash now... so dont think my old man can do anything about him.

I think when i earn my own cash the first things i'd buy is probably a future game console, like an X Box 2000 or a playstation 10 lol. then maybe those rugby and NBA jerseys... that'll cost tons but i dont care... i mean, thats what all guys do when they grow up right ? they're all bloody misers, but when it comes to the things they like, they'd just never stop splashing cash on 'em huh... like Tyrone from Long Day's Journey Into Night, the old dude'll just save and save and save but when it comes to entertaining friends at pubs and bars or buying up property, he just cant seem to stop can he ? my old man too... he doesnt really spend much money on anything 'cept electronic stuff, like the newest plasma tv, or the newest dvd recorder. i guess i'll be like that when i start working and have a family of my own.

Ah Project Work... those bastards at MOE had to think of something to keep us JC peeps busy :< mr teo told my mom its just crazy. PW. SAT. CCA and school's enough to keep us busy already, and they intoduce SAT, and now PW. sigh.. i cant really slack like i used to. forced to be busy busy busy. well maybe its good for me :D wouldnt do if i'm slacking my entire life away eh ? maybe i've changed after so long... kat says i've changed in a way that i'm more serious now, but still frivolous. i'm always thinking these days. there was once i'd never give a hoot 'bout anything. just live each day as it is :) always happy. not that i'm unhappy now. at the moment i'm just depressed, but some how i'm always thinking about.. something, anything nowadays. Mmm will i finally crack one day after over-thinking ? i've never cracked before. hope it wont happen :D

K enough on deep thoughts. i'll just go do a lil studying now :) and just be.... Me

You are FRODO! Congrats, you not only are the
center of attention, but you also have the
hardest job of the bunch!


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hmm... haha.

Boring saturday. never been this bored. SIANSATIONAL !!!

Not to mention i'm feeling depressed.



And down.



Have i felt this way before ? I guess so. a long time ago...



Oh. the only interesting thing that happened today was i slept the afternoon on the living room couch hugging my rugby ball.



How interesting is that ?



I shall game then. only studied for a while this morning. been watching tv ever since. no point in studying when i can't absorb anything into my head.

Oh wait had a long conversation with kathy through sms. talked about old times, then about the people we liked. ooo cant believe she drinks too. i've never touched a drop in my life. many lives've been ruined 'coz of alcohol. i'm not gonna risk that man. lots of relationships break 'coz of beer. but i duno how people can drink. it's so... yucky. haha i dunno how joe stands it man. well, preference i guess... but i think i'm the only guy on earth who's never touched alcohol before. well... maybe one day i will.. but i hope it'll only be once and the last...

How often have I seen your face
I wanted to say I like you so much
My love for any other thing cannot be
compared to the love I have for you
But It just hurts
To love in vain
How do I endure all the pain ?
Maybe It's because I just
Love You.


How crappy can that get :D hmm, reading tim's blog now. he aint the same old dude i knew, always insulting Singapore ( wait i think he still does that, 'cept not that much anymore ) always crapping about stuff, but he was HAPPY ! now he's sad... maybe it's jc life la. i duno, everyone tells me its making their lives sad sad sad. ben's sad too. not happy with jc life i suppose. as for me... i'm making myself sad by being "inarticulate" with her. i guess i'm just scared... not showing my true feelings, that's really so not me. sigh.

I do agree with you, tim... why the **** are there lessons during school holidays ?! it's : SCHOOL HOLIDAYS. which means, it's a holiday from SCHOOL. but nope, in singapore during school holidays we still go back to school. but that defeats the purpose of having a SCHOOL holiday doesnt it ? in Australia and the US ( from tim's blog ) teachers get SUED if they make their students come back for lessons.

Well, actually i'm not complaining, i dont mind going back 'coz i can see all my friends again :D actually i'm looking forward to monday ? though monday's timetable sucks the most, i just wanna see my classmates and schoolmates and friends. and her.

blah blah blah blah blah :)

oh i didnt eat lunch or dinner yesterday. thats the first time in a thousand years you'd see Dudley skip TWO MEALS in a day. then i woke up today, i didnt feel hungry at all. bizarre :) but ate at jalan kayu's roti prata shop... the price's getting steeper and the prata's getting smaller. but i cant eat lots, 'coz its oily and it gives your stomach that kinda oily, queasy feeling.

everyone's bugging me to watch Turn Left Turn Right. now... how i can i possibly watch it with someone since Everyone's watched it already ? NO WAY am i gonna watch it alone, and dont think people wanna watch it again. sigh. this sucks. i'm always lagging behind when it comes to movies. well, i've read quite a few reviews. basically the plot sucks, but i guess people love it 'coz they can relate. it's love, come on, any stupid oof in the street can relate to that. i mean, even a stoner like john has a crush now. sigh sigh sigh. depressed.

duno why i'm feeling depressed this hols. maybe its coz i havent seen my friends and her... everything feels so light hearted when i see her. sigh.

"We are such stuff as dreams are made on, and our little life is rounded with a sleep" ripped that off the Tempest. i should be studying now.

"I like rotyoung with bolshy groodies" :D

haha. gave manda 2 riddles to solve and she solved it. :P smart la, now she put it into her blog. hao lian =P

9 11

2 years ago the World Trade Centre fell. crumbled to the ground. ashes to ashes. dust to dust. so many deaths, so many hearts broken, so many, many lives shattered because Osama wanted to commence his jihad. show his loyalty to his religion which emphasizes on peace and not going around crashing air crafts into tall buildings in the world.

time really flies. when was it ? sec 3... the next morning the entire school was talking 'bout it and brother anthony did the morning prayer personally for those people... we talked about it in class all day long man, ben was bouncing up and down 'bout it. then last year brother did another prayer for its 1st annivesary.

saw pictures of Ground Zero just now on tv. really looks shitty. Manhattan's a beautiful city, really. but it really looks.. different, with all that rubble where WTC was, and its caged up. i feel for these people man, though i live thousands of kilometres away. it's gotta suck, really suck. thats an understatement. sigh, wonder if there'll ever be an end to terrorism and an end to the hatred the muslims and christians have for each other. from the Holy Crusades to this day it hasnt stopped. will racism ever end too ? haha~ i'm really guilty of that too, for those people who know me.. :P
since mshs' been an almost 100 percent chinese school... i'm always spreading those racist jokes in class. haha havent really stop.. gotta stop la, dalvin and venket are in my class now. have to suppress it wahaha...

Well. i wish the victims of 9 11 well, live on man. dont give up. there're many things ahead of us... so many unseen things. whether they're beautiful or not, happy or painful... it's still life. many of my friends've got issues.. family issues. maybe thats why i'm a happy kid. my family is just so strong. yea my parents bicker, but they love each other lots. and i fight with my brother too, well, not anymore ( i'm bigger, i'd squash him :D ) i never cherished that. now i feel so stupid and fucked. shit man, i gotta cherish what i got, my mom loves me dearly, and so do i love her too. :) okok... dont wanna get too soft and mom's yelling for me to sleep ( LOL ) gotta wake up early tmr coz duncan's graduation thing's on tomorrow in the morning.

Night y'all ! peace

Erm.. i kinda slept at 9 yesterday. lol. nvm, was tired.

jianlin and weijie came to meet me to do gym ! but... things didnt turn out to be the way we wanted it to be ! andy couldnt come 'coz he needed to get pemission from his parents, and they said No. well, we didnt do gym in the end.. we met weijie, went to my place, the guard said only residents can use the gym. wtf ? i've seen so many people bring their friends into the gym and this is the first time that non residents arent allowed to ? @*$*)!@!@ black shit. nvm :)

so.. we walked to YCK stadium. before that jianlin and i wanted to enter the stadium, but it was locked. so this time we tried to use the YCK gym, wasnt opened either. so we went to the stadium again, then JL noticed the paper stuck in front of the ticket booth stating that on the 10th of september 2003 YCK sports facilities would be closed coz they have some annual dinner thing. HAHAHAHAHA big joke.

then.. we walked to YCK CC. wanted to use the gym, but it costs 60 bucks per month :) in the end we spent the time doing ball handling in the CC. thank GOD JL brought his ball with him ! then we went to eat Ba Cho Mee at the hawker centre opposite :P

Joel you damn lucky you didnt come yesterday.. we'd be bumming around like mad nuts ! hahaha...

Oh went back home, went online for a while then richard called me. he asked whats my block and unit number ? i'm like, huh ? oh wait.. you're in castle green now !! hahaha ok cool, then he told me to look outta the kitchen window, but i went out and looked around, there he was on the 4th floor of the opposite side of 487. haha, then they came up to my place and we played for a while on my X Box. russ left earlier for church stuff, and rich left when grace called him. crazy man, 4 ruggers've been to my place in one day. not bad not bad :P

hmm.... lemme see... typing out everything i'm thinking of now :

Her. Food. Hunger. damn yesterday was fun though we walked around like idiots :D daena's birthday's today and she wants chilli kang kong. dad's white hair. thinking about her all day long, when i wake up, when i eat, when i'm playing, when i'm studying. Fugging hell !!!! I MISSED 3RD ROCK FROM THE SUN YTD oh well hope dad taped it :D PW meeting at 11 later... fuck 'em all cant wake up earlier was supposed to be at 10 but they postponed it to a further 11 o clock dumb arses just cant wake up early CAN THEY ? :) nope bryan and cynthia are hopeless indeed. tomorrow's duncan's graduation day, gotta wear something real nice, got some clothes that i've bought a long time ago but havent worn yet coz the occasion hasnt arrived... till tomorrow at least :). Joel's blog, interesting entry nice conversation with daryl. thinking about her again. transformers. optimus prime megatron starscream soundwave dinobots darn i miss my transformer toys. thinking about her yet again.

freaky. how so many thoughts just zip into my mind in and out, in and out, in and out just like that in a very short span of 3 , 4 minutes. bizzare :>

C y'all later.

Pirates of the Caribbean is good !! those assholes who havent watched it yet... go go go :P go watch la :P

Ahaha after econs lecture i joined 03a3 for their maths tutorial with mr koi. haha actually i was joking la, but daryl told him that i wanted to join their class and he said i was MOST welcomed. anyway spent like 1 hr + in the class stoning, copying down some differentiation questions which arent really related to what i study \= nat came to join too, but he does take maths =P

then, went to lido to eat with manda joe daryl steve jianlin. jianlin seems normal today, good sign :) anyway that idiot just sent me a chain sms from his icq. it contained : muak muak muak muak muak muak muak muak muak muak muak muak muak muak muak muak muak muak ok u get the idea :) he sent like, 10 smses ! idiot :P~ but at least its a sign he's back to normal. then, manda left coz she watched already and alecia joined us a lil later.

After show met up with mommy and then went home. the movie's great (= hmm.. wonder what'll it be like being a pirate. not bad, looting and plundering gold, getting any woman u want. hahaha quite a good career prospect... but piracy doesnt live these days sadly :( besides you can only see it in the form of illegal vcds in this region of the world. sad.

Oh yea, i almost forgot to mention that i met BEN at lido too. hahaha you arse ! you havent changed one bit ! =P my friends say you behave like a mat u idiot mat ! =P hahaha okay la, stay kinky and full-of-shit, but please, dont touch your classmates' thighs during class ? please ? :P i love u babe

Woopydeedoo. i met mr teo, my econs teacher, at macs near braddell mrt this morning. haha, i didnt see him though he's just on my right at the corner, till he called my name. then he told my mother all about me. haha crap man... says i was okay for the first 4 weeks of school, then suddenly i lost all interest. then i can do well if i wanna study, and i havent met up with him yet even when he's asked me to see him a couple of times already. blah blah blah, then i had to study econs all day long. HAHA so sian. oh i saw weiming in his HC uniform walking to the mrt... didnt have time to say hi to him 'coz he walked damn fast. he's crazy man, joined rugby and softball ! now he's only softball coz HC doesnt have rugger anymore. he must really have a busy life, especially coming from HCJC and having two really physically demanding CCAs.

Went to great world city to find my aunt for a while, she's selling tuperware there. boring day it's been.

Sigh, another person has died. he's from deyi sec and also jianlin's and joe's friend. JL's been feeling really down for the past few days. i duno... its really damn sad, a friend passes away. i think jianlin's quite a strong person, he's still laughing. if it was me i'd be crying already. maybe he cried la, but he's still smiling, and i definitely wouldnt. the worst i've felt was when grandma passed, and that's the only time in life, that i can remember, when i didnt smile for 'bout a week. was really solemn and all, and listened in class, even maths, didnt talk much to my classmates and friends, didnt make noise or create trouble at all. to sum it all up, i wasnt me when i was damn sad. guess i'm an emotional person, though big i may be.

But what's really making me fustrated is he took his own life. Why ? why would anyone take his life ? 'coz of family problems ? 'coz of love ? a girl shattered his heart into oblivion ? his parents giving him hell ? friends turned on him ? what ever it is or even worse, i can never think of anything that's good enough a reason for one to take his/her own life. perhaps they're weak, but life is so fucking ( excuse me ) precious and short. some people.. they just worry about what's it gonna be like in the next world that they dont think about NOW and enjoy life in the Present. some linger along the the pains and misery of the past, they just cant live in the present and think of the future. sometimes it's all a load of bull. nah, thinking's really important, but over-doing it'll just blow ur brains out. michelle's a good example. i find her distancing herself from peck choo and that gang these days. she told me they can't clique, but she says everyone should belong to ONE group. why belong to one group ? sense of security ? show that you aint no loner ? guess thats why daena thinks me and thiam peng are 'natural' loners. yea we do talk and socialise, and i'm pretty guilty of that :P , but sometimes we wanna be alone. yeah its true, but that doesnt mean we have to form one group and show the world : hey y'all ! look ! i belong to THAT group ! HA ! am i cool or am i cool ?

Is that it ? nah, i dont think so. actually i dont really belong to one group. whether its important or not, i dont really like sticking to just one group and spending 99 percent of my time on that one group. i kinda spread myself evenly lol. ( well lots of surface area, so sufficient to cover a huge area of friends (= )

Maybe that's why i love basketball and rugby. when i play... i'm in another universe altogether. sure there's lots of contact and both sports require a high level of physicality, but that doesnt mean anything to me. i just feel so relaxed, the burden of Thought is momentarily wiped outta the world for me. okay sure there's thinking involved, thinking on whats the next move, when's the next pass or something like that yadayadayada, but thats another point. i dont care about what happens outside, even if theres a nuclear strike i'll probably still be playing, LOL. the thoughts of the girl i like, the problems, though few they may be, i face in life, and any shit thats happened to me, i never think of them. ( haha okay so there's once or twice i think of Her, but only ONCE OR TWICE okay :P )

I guess every single human being has their own problems. it's only how one faces them's that's important. killing yourself is just chickening out. man, that really sucks, to chicken out ? are u a fucking coward, asshole ? then dont even exist man. face your problems like a man, dont run away screaming : mommy !!!!!! and hiding under a bush waiting for everything to turn out fine.

Okay i'm a little vulgar today :) guess i'm just really cross with these people. 'nyway i'm off... been studying quite a lot today !! ( by my standards 3 hours is a lot (: ) time to game ! econs lecture tomorrow, then PW ( sigh ) then gonna watch pirates of the caribbean with joe and his mates. I'm out like the Wallybees in the tri-nations ( sorry tim :> )

innocent kiss - you're cute and sweet and like it
that way


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lol took this quiz. innocent. cute. like it that way. HMMMMmmmm much to ponder about.



You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.


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MOST interesting. hahaha and i've never kissed a girl before.

I cut my hair. HAHAHAHA big joke man. it looks like shit if i dont spike it up. sigh. maybe i should shave again. hair's always been a problem for me. sigh sigh sigh should i shaveeeee i wanna shave. so annoyed. either i cut again, or i'll have to spikt it up 24 7. haiz nvm.. see how tomorrow... if i still feel it sucks some more i'll just go cut. grrr shall end today with a poem :

I shake the thoughts of you
out of my mind
I don't know what's happening
Was this love so blind?

Why do I still dream of you?
Why do I still wish you were here?
Why do I still long to see you?
Why do I wish you were near?

I'm infatuated with you
But I want that feeling to end
I know you don't feel the same
I just want my heart to mend

I hide all these feelings from you
keep them locked up inside
I ask my friends for their help
At least I have in them to confide

I think I'm succeeding
I think this feeling is dying
I think this is working
I think my heart is crying

I guess all I can do now
is just let go
Maybe this feelings isn't real
But I'll just let things flow

I thought you felt the same
I was so naive
I actually thought you liked me
That's what I can't believe

I don't know what to do
I don't want to think of you
Then again I do want to,
and all I want is to make it through

I just wanna forget you
I just wanna let go
Should I ?
Or maybe not.
Give it one last shot.

Stupid BLOG ! the network was down yesterday, so couldnt blog last night.

Soo... i shall blog for yesterday AGAIN. haha. lets see.. hmmm oh went out the entire day, compass point sucked, then went to taka, met Daniel ! haha that dude's in VJ now.. he was with 2 of his classmates. he said he met ranjan and my first 3 mths classmates. oh there was supposed to be a class outing but i couldnt go, 'coz i'm kinda like grounded. @*)($*(!(! they watched jeepers creepers. yep.. anyway daniel still looks pretty much the same. he's still wearing his grey singlet and long pants, showing off his muscular body =P haha

Then went to suntec in the evening. this is where shit happened. my right contact lense FELL !!! damn annoyed, everytime i wanted to look on my right side i had to turn my head 90 degrees right just to get a good look. i'll have to get the habit of bringing my contacts casing with me every i go man.

Amazing man, first time in a long while i never bought anything after going out all day long ! hahaha so proud of myself :P well, gtg, breakfast ! blog later...........................................................................................

Hahaha i'm blogging for yesterday... i fell asleep at 9 last night !! i wanted to lie down for a while, but i couldnt get up. wahaha.

Oh, yesterday was the inter-class captain's ball competition at the quadrangle. we got 2nd i think ? a2 got 1st, while 13 was last. erm, before that, went to eat at macs with mich adam kenneth sab and daena. sab and daena went back earlier, then the four of us went to get adam a hair band. ( michelle bought it, i dont think it'll look right if adam went to the counter with the hairband :P ) then played bball for a while, REALLY REALLY rusty since quiting bball training 6, 7 weeks ago.. then went sprinting 100m with the weight lifting bar. whoa that was tiring man. gotta do it regularly, build up my darn stamina. then.. came the games ! played 2 outta the 5. we got into the finals with a2. i couldnt really block shots 'coz my adidas a3 ( sorry, make that jianlin's a3. he lent it to me ) were darn heavy. hey, i couldnt touch the board last year !! now i can slap the basketball board with my palm already. hey, we lost, but still had loads of fun :)

ooo dad was in school waiting for me at 6 already ! and i only went to the car at 6.40 :\ made him wait 40 mins !! argh feel shitty. i didnt know he smsed coz the phone was in the bag. sorry dad !!! :\

then i was so tired i slept at 9+ !!! actually i looked at my gp and chi papers for like 10 mins, then i wanted to lie down and rest for a while. plans were already going through my mind, study for like an hour more, then go online, then sleep, but i just dozed off. haha, pig la, but i think the sprinting got me tired la.

Hmm, going to compass point now. Cya !

:)

Today, i went out with manda joe alecia marcus and john. actually that idiot daena was supposed to come watch pirates of the caribbean with us, but she didnt -_- nvm... 'coz of her manda didnt wanna watch, well, next time then.

We ate at lido, everyone had long john's. haha, alecia joe and i were talking about the shyt we did in secondary school, alecia said once her class put a pad onto the teacher's chair. hahaha we didnt do that !! so joe's gonna tell his brother to do it :P wahaha then alecia and joe left to get a present for her mom's birthday.

After that we went to the condo right in front of NYJC to play tennis ! haha my first time ever playing tennis !!! the only other times were when i played my game boy :P marc and john are okay, but john's serving isnt good, he's gotta practice on that. haha~ then i kept whacking the ball outta the court and into the grass outside. -_- had to keep running outta the court to grab 'em ! when i saw those old dudes at the other side playing, they seemed to use a LOT of force just to swing the racket, but the ball didnt fly over the fencing -_- either they're good at transfering energy from their wrist into minimal energy into the ball, or just that they're so weak they need to whack the ball with all their might so it can just cross over the net while i just swing the racket lightly and the ball flies over -_-

Ahahaha manda's better than me at tennis ! but also no use, our games were quite crazy 'coz the ball flew over the fencing, or it just flew over to the other courts =\ then john and i went back to school to play ball for like 20 mins before i left. ahmad played too, with his friend.

Mmm, tomorrow's the interclass games between 03a1 to a3 ! Captain's ball and floorball i heard, but i'm still gonna wear my bball jersey :P even though Vincent Toh told us to wear white shirts. well, my jersey's white, and besides, everyone knows i'm from a1. hahaha hope john and marcus'll skip tennis and play with us !!

Aye, must watch Pirates of the Caribbean. must must !! must watch k :P

Stupid me.

I dropped my phone TWICE today. ONCE in the LT during econs lecture while i was sleeping. -_- okay was still fine, then the second time, while i'm facing the comp it slipped from my hand and dropped. and now there's a crack beside the top left side of the keypad.

Stupid me.

And all i have to say is : ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OKAYYY... we didnt play against the B division guys, we played against the C div guys. few things i'd like to say 'bout them : small, not strong buttttt fast, quick, agile, excellent endurance. Was fun at first, then we all got tired and they just kept breaking through and scoring the tries...

actually they're damn weak ? i single handedly held back one of their mauls, but hey, they're only 14, and i'm 16 going 17. we defended quite well in the first 1/3 of the game, only conceded 3 tries. then later in the 2/3 and 3/3 parts, we just let down our fitness and agression.. aiya heck. damn sianz.

Oh oh kenneth's hair do, saw it, pointed at it, laughed at it. =P hahaha maybe he should just stick to the Oscar Wilde hairdo =P and i realise i still owe lots of homework, three history essays, 4 chinese essays. wooohoooo, okay, shall be hardworking, will do 2 of kellet's essays and 3 chi essays. :) must do it by friday man. sigh, well, this is the outcome for someone who procrastinates all the time. well, darn tired, shall sleep now... night.

Things i bought today :

1. Ralph Lauren Shorts
2. Crumpler Bag

wooohoooo that equals to.. erm.. 95 + 159 = 254 ? haha been a long time since i took maths. my brain's dying. i didnt know the bag cost that much, but nvm... lol. oh cant wait to get the new All Blacks jersey....... mom said she'll get it for me when my birthday comes :D and the world cup starts in october too. busy month, october... Promos, then LEAP Carnival, then my birthday. shit, each House has to come up with its own cheer by the LEAP carnival, and its RIGHT after the promos. And i'm house Cap'n. -sigh- this sucks, daena's the new female house captain 'coz joanne stepped down. sian, thats boring crap. erm, don't mean daena, i meant that there wont be time for cheerleading practice. i'm definitely not taking part, bleahz. got my own rugby LEAP carnival stuff to do too man, and i'm CHAIRMAN. urgh, thought could continue slacking in JC, since i've never had any leadership roles before in sec sch, but now i have so many responsibilities. -sigh- shall do my best...

Econs test tomorrow, DIE. havent studied. sigh, shall sit beside Teck Meng again hwahaha hope they dont put our class in front of the LT again, cant really look over his paper when the teachers're right in front of you. then after that's the match... i think my bag's gonna be filled only with rugby gear, no books. wont have any mood to study tomorrow. jamal's crazy la, he already told us to concentrate on studying after the test match and now he organises some friendly and we're only informed less than a week before tomorrow. I gotta really start mugging, 5 weeks left to promos. i dread saying this buuuutt... MUST MUG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

9.54am ... woohoo and i'm already blogging. First thing i log into my blog i see SZ flooding my tag board AGAIN -_-

Shu Zhen : let not the term "essay board" get to you, ya ? ;P actually i dont hate ac la, its just the passion of the game. it's more like, rivalry. well, anyway, try to keep ur tags shorteR ? :P hahaha relax man, next time gimme an sms la, i'll reply in a jiffy ! unless, of course, i'm already sleeping :P and that nicole girl, i'm not the one who said she's hot la, its my friend. and i havent seen her yet, even though i walked past her once but i didnt look at her. FINALLY, i'll end by saying that blogging has become a hobby to me, therefore i blog on an almost daily basis. i dont really take much time to blog 'coz everything's already in my head. ( fast blogger eh ? :P ) well, u shouldnt spend too much time on the com !! u should be preparing for your prelims and O levels. well, maybe O levels la, but should also study for prelims too :P ( sounds funny coming from me, but... ) just study la, dont be like me playing LAN games almost everyday during the prelims. lol, if u do that u'll end up in a shyt hole like outram institute for the first three months. okay, i met really great friends there, but dont waste your first 3 mths completely there la, should at least try to catch up with JC life during that period of time so you'll be more prepared after that.

Hmm, have lots to say to you, thats why didnt tag the board to reply u :P well, i'm off to heerens, happy teacher's day ! :D

(p.s. jonathan ! send me the song when u catch me online yea ? thanks babe :-) )