Something takes a part of me.
Something lost and never seen.
Everytime I start to believe,
Something's raped and taken from me... from me.
Life's got to always be messing with me. (You wanna feel alive)
Can't they chill and let me be free? (So do I)
Can't I take away all this pain. (You wanna feel alive)
I try to every night, all in vain... in vain.
Sometimes I cannot take this place.
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste.
Sometimes I cannot feel my face.
You'll never see me fall from grace
Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
A cheap fuck for me to lay
Something takes a part of me.
Feeling like a freak on a leash. (You wanna feel alive)
Feeling like I have no release. (So do I)
How many times have I felt diseased? (You wanna feel alive)
Nothing in my life is free... is free
Chorus

Boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema

GO!
So...fight! something on the... dum na ema
Fight...some things they fight
So...something on the... dum na ema
Fight...some things they fight
Fight...something of the... dum na ema
No...some things they fight
Fight...something of the... dum na ema
Fight...some things they fight



Freak on a Leash :>


Korn is good stuff man. listened to a couple of their songs, but i'm only familiar with freak on a leash. think there's a song they called A.D.I.D.A.S. too, lol. it's about sex and fucking and that kinda stuff. haha. wonder what's ADIDAS stand for ? your guess is as good as mine :) ( then again NOT ! there ARE fools out there who're thicker than the trees in redwood forest, and they'd be wondering where IS redwood forest ! )



Oh i havent mentioned 'bout the year ones who joined rugby. well... nothing much, there's like 3 or 4 hopeful ones. as for the rest ... ... ... ... ... one asked last tues when it was raining : eh, today raining right, training indoors ah ?
i had to choose between crying or laughing, but i decided not to make any, and decided to remain calm ( and at the same time refraining myself from beating him to a pulp ) and kindly told : No.



The inter-lit class games failed, badly man. but least got my class shirt. but the fit aint right, everyone's complaining its too big, but for me its kinda tight across the chest and a tat bit long. ooo the things i'd do with an axe like Gimli's....... :D



Alright, i'm out !

To Be With You by Mr Big


Hold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I've seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

Chorus

Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile

When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you



I'm not sure about you guys, but with players like anna kournikova and pete sampras and marat safin and yada yada yada... where IS Michael Chang ? :) The former world superstar tennis player, i remember once going to suntec city to watch 'im 'cause he was in singapore. that was probably a couple of years ago ( yea.. a COUPLE ) and now i'm still wondering.. where is Michael Chang ? :)


Wonder...
Wonder if i had a twin brother ! what would he be named ? There's duncan, then there's me, but what would my twin be ? willoughby ? :D nahh its such a dorky name, i bet jane austen wanted to name her son willoughby ! ( if she had a son or wanted to anyway... )



And now i'm wondering again.. where is Dennis fucking Rodman ? we miss you man :)

I miss balling :) i missed everyone man. thank god for reunions. :)



Total Eclipse of the Heart by Bonnie Tyler

Turnaround, every now and then I get a
little bit lonely and you're never coming around
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit restless and I dream of something wild
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround, every now and then I know
you'll never be the boy you always you wanted to be
Turnaround, every now and then I know
you'll always be the only boy who wanted me the way that I am
Turnaround, every now and then I know
there's no one in the universe as magical and wonderous as you
Turnaround, every now and then I know
there's nothing any better and there's nothing I just wouldn't do
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart



Confusion hits me like a tidal wave
The days have not been kind
as waves of thoughts hit me endlessly
and it stabs my heart repeatedly
A scar deeply wounded in my heart
and i blank with walls of cold steel
not even i can penetrate through...
Why is it i cannot look into my own heart ?
For it was once held by a young boy
who did not bare the burdens of an already ancient world
scarred by memories good and bad.
And now...
I am only confused, as thoughts swim through my head
and i can feel myself tearing apart
and not far away,
will I be lost..
Forever

Spent half the day at rachel's place yesterday.. haha..

When i came, ting ting already left, john and kareen had to leave, but all of 'em came back later in the afternoon. reuben ( who happens to be rach's bro ) is kinda ok, haha, we can relate... gaming, and the always painful journeys to look for shoes that fit our feet, haha.



John and kareen wanted us to buy stuff to drink, but rach and i didnt, so the girls went out to get 'em. came back with sprite and vodka. haha, i'm thinking... what ? tingting cant drink, neither can john and rach too. wasnt sure about kareen, and i know marcus drinks, but that left me, the one who's supposed to be anti-alcohol. haha, the biggest fucking irony's that i was the only one who drank and survived. tingting's so cute ! (= haha she took ONE SIP... ONE SIP !! can you believe it ? and she got drunk and fell asleep. LOL. mind you, it was vodka cocktail, mixed with sprite. rach didnt drink la, maybe only a sip or two, but she stopped. so did marcus. john john john... ur hopeless. hahaha i'm never going out with john to drink ! i'll end up drinking alone man. then it came down to kareen. she seemed fine at first, and i was telling her if i needed a partner i'd ask her, but then again i'm not too sure again, she definitely was drunk coz she started crying over daryl.


AS for me. sigh.. haha, i finished kareen's and john's. i was a bit tipsy, but i went to sleep almost after i came home.



Talking to joe online. just learnt that i had vodka neat ! to quote weini : i'm learning new things everyday. lol. vodka cocktail's a mixture of vodka with other stuff ( in our case they had sprite :P ), vodka neat's just pure vodka. hey i was thinking how lousy a drinker i was when got a bit "relaxed", and now i remember drinking more than half the bottle for them last night, LOL.


Aye, sorry joe, cant join ya and joshua at ur place ( which should be any time now ) i dont mind getting drunk and sober at ya place.



Michael Learns to Rock, More Than A Friend.

You got me counting the seconds
It happens every time
I'm waiting for the moment
we can sit down and talk for a while
And every time that you're near me
my heart is running away
How can I tell you when words don't come easy
and there is so much I'm trying to say

Chorus:
I wanna know that love will surround us
and you'll share it with me every day
Tell me you'll care for me now and forever
I'll give anything to hear you say
that I'm more than a friend

I'm gonna try in the future
not to live in the past
I guess that I was a dreamer
if I thought it could ever last
But every time that I see you
you bring me out in the sun
How can I hide it when we are together
I just know that you're the only one

Chorus:
I wanna know...

I wanna make you see
everything you are to me
Try to understand
I wonder if you can
The love I have for you
will always be true


I stare in disbelieve at the lyrics of the song.
And in my eyes...
I know.
I really do.



Anyway :D here's another by MLTR, Sleeping Child. :)

The Milky Way upon the heavens
is twinkling just for you
and Mr. Moon he came by
to say goodnight to you

I'll sing for you I'll sing for mother
We're praying for the world
and for the people everywhere
gonna show them all we care

Chorus:
Oh my sleeping child the world's so wild
but you've build your own paradise
That's one reason why I'll cover you sleeping child

If all the people around the world
they had a mind like yours
we'd have no fighting and no wars
there would be lasting peace on Earth

If all the kings and all the leaders
could see you here this way
they would hold the Earth in their arms
they would learn to watch you play

Chorus:
Oh my sleeping child the world's so wild
but you've build your own paradise
That's one reason why I'll cover you sleeping child

I'm gonna cover my sleeping child
Keep you away from the world so wild


Aye, i'm so emotional now i just wanna be in a trance.

And the lakers arent going anywhere since their 10 game winning streak weeks ago.




When in danger,
when in doubt,
just run about,
and scream and shout

Someone might hear
Who knows who ?
and when it happens,
what will you do ?

Smile and thank god
pray for love ?
pray that you'll never
ever break a nerve ?

And i know this
is what it seems
a stupid poem
of endless seams

of nonsensical things
and that kinda stuff
and i wont tell you otherwise,
YES ! it's not a duff !

Ding dong bell,
Pussy in the well :)



(And i can hear girls telling me to, Fornicate off for that last bit :D )


Ok i'm out like Grant Hill.



*i look into thy eyes
and i can only see love :)

Amin Mela Lle


I was bidding to give a token to thee
A token of love, from mine heart to give
Thy face, so lovely, so endearing, thy grace,
That only thee can be,
It is only for you that I can live

To breathe... To dream... a subtle feeling that passed
Yet it seemed so strong, so all-powerful
When I realised it. It hit me like a force
No other exists,
The Power of Love.

Where are the good singers these days ?


Dead.



No, really. i'm serious.


Karen Carpenter. Now she was a One-and-Only. she could sing without music and still top charts. too bad she thought she was fat ( as everyone knows, she was just about fat as any poles in our mrt trains ) and she tried slimming. well, that was her death, 'cause she got too THIN.

John Denver. oooh he was great man :) but he died in 97, i remember, when i was primary five. that's when mother teresa passed too.

Then one of the Bee Gee's is dead too. sad. fuck yoko uno man ! the beatles'... 2 down, 2 to go i guess.




I mean.... guys. Come ON.
What the fuck is 5566 ?!?! TaTu ? britney spears ? F4 ? Jay Zhou ? Beeeg joke man. Big.

No offence. their songs are not too bad, some are great, i'd say ! but their singing... it doesnt suck, but it's really all the same. no female singer at present's on par with karen carpenter.




Where's the Jackson 5 man ? lol michael was a great singer, even during the jackson 5 days.



Sorry, i'm leaving lotsa blanks. i've so much to blog, but nothing's coming out of my head right now. guess it's cause i'm tired. well well.. since it's past 12am... i'll wish everyone a Happy Chinese New year !! :) Peace, and prosperity...



*loving u more than that.

Santa Esmeralda. You're My Everything.

You're my everything
the sun that shines above you makes the blue bird sing
the stars that twinkle way up in the sky tell me I'm in love.

When I kiss your lips
I feel the rolling thunder to my fingertips
and all awhile my head is in despair deep within I'm in love.

You're my everything and nothing really matters but the love you bring
you're my everything to see you in the morning
with those deep brown eyes.

You're my everything forever any day I need you close to me
you're my everything you'll never have to worry
never fear for I am near.

Oh, my everything
I live upon the land that see the sky above
I swing within her oceans sweet and warm there's no storm my love.

You're my everything no nothing really matters but the love you bring
you're my everything to see you in the morning
with those deep brown eyes.

You're my everything forever any day I need you close to me
you're my everything you'll never have to worry
never fear for I am near.

When I hold you tight there's nothing
that can harm you in the lonely night
I'll come to you and keep you safe and warm it's so strong my love.

When I kiss your lips I feel the rolling thunder to my fingertips
and all awhile my head is in despair deep within I'm in love.



Okay, so the song hit me, Hard. was playing it through my head the entire day.




it's 3 hours since i last blogged. lol. slept for a while, woke up 'cause had this stupid nightmare. i woke up at 12 this morning, couldnt get back to sleep, so stayed up to read till 3am.


Oh i was reading rachel's book about love and dating and that kinda stuff. there's this chapter on : more than friends, less than lovers. i wrote a piece during econs lec last week with the exact same words !! LOL talking 'bout coincidence.



*:)

School's supposed to end at 3.40 but.....



What the bloody fuck :)



I was so tired the entire day. came to school feeling alright, but GP started the day, and i kept feeling sleepy throughout. econs lecture was a total disaster. john influenced me to sleep, 'cause he kept going "walao damn sian" on and on and on. LOL skipped history tutorial, spent my entire time bumming in the canteen with ting, chun and rach.





What the bloody Hell.



Bored :(


So me was thinkin'...

Sauron's yet to unleash his most terrifying servant.
The one who will lead Mordor's armies to the pelannor fields of Minas Tirith.
The Greatest of the Nine.
The Lord of the Nazgul.
The Black Rider.
The Witch-King of Angmar.

Prophecy's that he's the One whom no Man can kill.


And dude lost his life ( whatever that's left in that black cloak of his anyway ) to a girl and a halfing ? What the Bleeding Phuck !!!


This is bad man. i'm sick since 2 weeks ago, but i'm recovering at a rate slower than a mat can learn how to speak proper English. oh. Bite Me. then again, do remember duncan telling me his eng teacher told him once that there's no such thing as proper English. language's almost as bizarre as Chinese !!! and i'm one of the lucky bastards to study BOTH languages :)



Mitch's been saying life sux. wonder why... but for me, Life's just GREAT ! :D man. Happy, shalala. and there's only one thing in the whole world that can bring total happiness to you :>


I'm not talking even about FOOD dammit !!! :D

I'll leave it to y'all to find out.




Anyway i'm out like Shaq and Kobe !

And the other guy, his name's Malone, right ?

And the year 2004 marks the beginning of my last year in school.

Strange enough, year one seems just seconds ago, secondary school seemed like yesterday and primary school only a month ago. and today is already the eighteenth of January.


Chinese new year's this coming thursday... time's flying past me so fast i can gasp for air. last year's new year was nothing short of boring. and the year before... was perhaps the saddest moment of my life.




The orientation wasnt too bad. i really slacked a lot, lol. but i did have loads of fun for those 3 days while my classmates started suffering year 2. didnt know u'd earn lotsa cca points ( or hours ? ) being an ogl till the final day. actually the only reason why i signed up to be one was that i just wanted to have fun. thats all, Really.

And to answer the question of : Are the year one girls pretty ? LOL first told adriel couldnt find any special ones, but now there's like a few. sorry la adriel, didnt notice that hard..... it seems i know the entire student council already, and so many other ppl just 'cause of the whole orientation thing.


Reall pleasant song. Love Is All Around.


I feel it in my fingers
I feel it in my toes
Love is all around me
And so the feeling grows

It?s written on the wind
It?s everywhere I go, oh yes it is
So if you really love me
Come on and let it show

You know I love you
I always will
My mind?s made up
By the way that I feel
There?s no beginning
There?ll be no end
?Cause on my love
You can depend

I see your face before me
As I lay on my bed
I kinda get to thinking
Of all the things you said, oh yes I did
You gave your promise to me
And I gave mine to you
I need someone beside me
In everything I do, oh yes I do

You know I love you
I always will
My mind?s made up
By the way that I feel
There?s no beginning
There?ll be no end
?Cause on my love
You can depend

Ooh, it?s written in the wind
And where I go
So if you really love me
Come on and let it show



*I'm back.


( i still dont feel like blogging, but i'm blogging anyway just for the sake of ppl who want me to blog. lol. )