To say that Raffles Junior College played well would be an understatemnt. they played fucking well man.

The score ? 6-3. no try was scored, that was the downside of the match, but it wasn't one-sided, and both sides played absolutely well. well.. congratulations to the rafflesian side, they maintained under pressure and the rain. their defence was superb man, their weaker forward pack matched the awesome ac pack with tackle after tackle after tackle. what was amazing was that rj never let the ac backline break through once.



That's the end of anglo-chinese's 3-peat. they've lost the B div title to the Saints weeks ago, yesterday they lost the A div gold to Raffles. if they actually lose the C div this year, they're gonna fall hard. that's what you get for arrogance.




Wednesday was kinda a day for trophies. lol. proud to announce that House Phoenix won the boys' gold trophy and the overall House Championship Trophy. :)






HECTOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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Watched Troy with john and teckmeng. won't spoil it for those who havent yet....... sooooo............ just go watch it la :) the battle scences remind me of the Lord of the Rings, and Paris.. he seemed to become Legolas all of a sudden with the bow and the arrows ? but nvm that.. Troy is good stuff ppl, WATCH IT !




And the holidays are coming..



O jolly jolly good.











HECTOR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've waited a year for tomorrow. so.. what's tomorrow ?





The under-20 police cup finals.






13-11. that was the score raffles jc lost to acjc.



It's time RJ broke ACJC's 3-peat. 2004 ? it's gonna be Raffles'.. that's if they play well...


And i pray that they play for their lives.

Right or wrong. What determines either ? society's perspective ? your parents' perspectives ? Nietzsche's perspective ? your own perspective ? right ? wrong. or wrong ? right. or both ? or both.



So if i dont want to study and bum all my life, for example.. for example.. is that ultimately wrong because my society and every other human being with the sole exception of Me think that it's wrong ? but if i'm happy with that decision am i right ?


So mercy killing is a way to end pain. right or wrong. right or wrong. okay, so taking life away, life that does not belong to you, is wrong. or is it right ? if you do it with a clear conscience that what you're doing is what you think is right, is that right..




So it's all a matter of the individual's perspective. laws are based on the duology of rights and wrongs. even the pillars supporting a country can be flawed. but then again.. if things work, they work.



Aiya, i don't even know about myself. i can think of this kinda cock for hours and days and even years, it seems endless. like.. how i pondered about the Human Existence since i was 6 ! if i remember correctly, my chinese teacher was reciting some crap from the textbook about ghosts and the afterlife, then i asked my mom if there was an afterlife. naturally, as a buddhist, she did. till now, i wonder if there really is an Almighty one up there, or do our souls just float to another dimension to take up another form, or we become Nothing after death. scary thought. but i cant be bothered anymore.... even boey kim cheng's still searching for his own answers. haha. aye... so.. moral of the story, so far ? live for the moment. that's me.




What lies before is constant uncertainty.

Can't tell the diff between distilled water and NEWater. but ........................................ fuck that :) FINALLY got my very own NEWater bottle !!!!



I dunno what's with my temper these days, but it's getting shorter. the slightest volume raise from my mom'll blow me up already, and the year ones in school ? Bloody Hell. i'll bloody beat the next year one who dis's me to pulp.



Where's jonny wilko ? we miss 'im. I miss 'im.

That's it then.


The end ? yea, for jc rugby.... but definitely not the finale of rugby for me man :) i promise myself it's gonna be part of my future too.



Now, it's just studying. fucking sian :(





Johannes Chrysostomus Wolfgangus Theophilus Amadeus Mozart. 53 letters. man, i'm telling you, it's fifty-fucking-three LETTERS !!! THAT's a big deal man :D who actually has 6 names in his ID ( if they had IDs at that time ) man ? it's crazy shit !






Alrite. that's it. i'm dead tired, g`nite.




(oh, the library bitch ? she's one fucking hell of a bitch. made meiting cry just 'cause she was laughing. bitch.)








(I Love My Team Mates :))

Time flies man.


It was a little more than a year ago when i first touched the rugby ball. now.. come to think of it, all that dislike between team memebers thing, it's more or less gone now ( and i wouldnt have guessed melgious would've been my friend a year ago man :P ) and tomorrow's the last game of my jc rugby career. sorry joe.. sorry guys, if i've been under-performing. maybe some of ya have high hopes in me, and i promise i wont disappoint tomorrow man, whether sick or not.


This is it, then. the last sixty minutes i'll be playing with my teammates, my friends, my brothers. I love y'all.

The exemplary life consists of love and humility; in a fullness

of heart that does not exclude even the lowliest; in a formal

repudiation of maintaining one’s rights, of self-defence, of

victory in the sense of personal triumph; in faith in blessedness

here on earth, in spite of distress, opposition and death; in

reconciliation; in the absence of anger; the completest

spiritual-intellectual independence; a very proud life beneath

the will to a life of poverty and service.

These are beautiful words written of Jesus and they betray an enormous respect for carpenter, teacher and healer of Nazareth. Neitzsche, besides being a philosopher, was also a philologist, a student of language and literature, and drawing on his knowledge of classical Greek he described Jesus as an idiot. Here he meant, not that Jesus was mentally defective, far from it, but that the Greek word idios means "private" as opposed to "public". He was saying that Jesus was a man who went his own way and did not follow the crowd, and by his actions and demeanour Jesus exposed the falsehoods in the lives of others.

This so-called atheist has presented us with an informed and biblically inspired portrayal of Jesus of Nazareth. In the nineteenth century Nietzsche despised those who held on to the trappings of religion, but whom he knew could not and did not believe in the Christian God. He felt that many of the religious despisers of his day held on to religion out of fear. It was a fear that without religion life would become meaningless, that humanity would need to face the truth that it was alone in the universe, and that after death there was only nothing. Neitzsche did not see it that way. He thought that without religion, for the first time in human history, humanity would be liberated, no longer bound to looking to the heavens: the sea on which we sailed would now be our sea. That life, which was truly an open sea, had never before existed in human history and this would bring us joy.

Neitzsche said that he did not believe in God, but were he to, then what he would say of God is that He is holy. God, he said, had to be separate from the universe, unknown, above morality and above all good and evil. The God that was worthy of our worship could not become embroiled in the messy and mundane that was human existence. Talking of religious people, he wrote:

Think of the tremendous fuss these pious little people make over
their trespasses! Who cares? God least of all.
Neitzsche took the view that:
the noble God with imagination and creative power beyond anything
conceivable to human beings created the universe: [and therefore]
was His grand plan to culminate in a balance sheet of petty trespasses?

Surely not!" thought Neitzsche. One of his favourite stories from the Bible was that of the young Uzzah who put his hand on the Ark of the Covenant. King David was leading his people, together with the Ark, into the city of Jerusalem, a city he had just conquered. As the Ark was being carried into the city the oxen pulling it stumbled, and in order to save it, the young Uzzah held out his hand to hold it up. In Second Samuel we are told that God’s anger was such that there and then he struck down Uzzah, and it was there that Uzzah died. Neitzsche says that this Judaic story is told to reinforce that God is holy, separate and can never be touched by human hands; there is nothing in all creation that can represent the holy, the infinite, the Beyond in our midst. This story is told to reinforce how incompatible we are with the Being of God. Neitzsche said that it was only this noble God who was worthy of our worship.

On May 7th the planet associated with your sign, Mars, leaves Gemini and enters Cancer. This brings a period of crisis to an end, in which you have felt the need to express your inner emotions and purge the demons within. Whilst this may have brought a crisis in communication with loved ones, it is also likely that the air was cleared and misunderstandings powerfully resolved.

However, whilst you emerge into the light, and start searching for new horizons and opportunities, it is likely that loved ones have unfinished business which prevents them from following in your footsteps. Apart from issues regarding emotional communication, there may be financial matters that are unresolved. This is an excellent period for laying old debts to rest, and for radically restructuring your economy.

With Mars in Cancer until the end of June, your focus must be on education, opinion-making or foreign horizons. There have been challenges in these areas since June 2003, and now it is time to make a concentrated effort to solve whatever problems there have been. And there are tough challenges. It is important not to be overwhelmed, but to break large tasks into small ones, and solve them one by one. By summoning up willpower and determination, you make a lasting impression. You are the person who can build a bridge of understanding from the old to the new. The last week of May is the key period for showing a character of steel; remember, when the going gets tough, the tough get going.



On May 7th thiam peng was poled, that's all i care :D





Don't get too close, put up your guard
You might wind up with a broken heart
That's something you've had your share of
The strange emotions burn within
You can't believe you're falling



Playing acjc later. hope they've got a nice changing room over there.






*to die, to sleep, no more, to sleep perchance to dream*

How Can You Mend A Broken Heart by the Bee Gees


I can think of younger days when living for my life
Was everything a man could want to do.
I could never see tomorrow, but I was never told about the sorrow.

And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
What makes the world go round?
How can you mend a this broken man?
How can a loser ever win?
Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again.

I can still feel the breeze that rustles through the trees
And misty memories of days gone by
We could never see tomorrow, noone said a word about the sorrow.

And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
What makes the world go round?
How can you mend this broken man?
How can a loser ever win?
Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again.



Simple song, like most of the others from the bee gees' time. but life's much more complicated than one song.

You start off with a a complete heart, then some girl comes along and breaks it to pieces. then some new girls comes into the picture and picks the pieces up, holds your heart together, then she breaks it, again. an endless cycle, and i'm still going on. the question now is : when will it end ?

Doubt as sin. - Christianity has done its utmost to close the circle and declared even doubt to be a sin. one is supposed to be cast into belief without reason, by a miracle, and from then on to swim in it as in the brightest and least ambiguous of elements : even a glance towards lands, even the thought that one perhaps exists for somethign else as well as swimming, even the slightest impulse of our amphibious nature - is sin ! and notice that all this means that the foundation of belief and all reflection on its origin is likewise excluded as sinful. what is wanted are blindness and intoxication and an eternal song over the waves in which reason has drowned !

-Daybreak



Friedrich Nietzsche. the philosopher who made himself famous by declaring that "God is dead" in the Gay Science, 1882. he's a fucking genious i tell you. but of all he's mentioned, i love his theory of "Superman" the most.



"I teach you the overman. Man is something that shall be overcome [surpassed]. What have you done to overcome [surpass] him? All beings so far have created something beyond themselves; and do you want to be the ebb of this great flood and even go back to the beasts rather than overcome man? What is the ape to man? A laughingstock or a painful embarrassment. And man shall be just that for the overman: a laughingstock or a painful embarrassment..."



I do wonder at times.. and i still do, that, religion is still a major question hovering over our heads. 1, is there really a God out there, or 2, was religion created by ancient Men so that other, insecure Men could cling on to something they Believe in ? i've mentioned it before, Belief is a powerful tool.

It's still a world of uncertainty out there. we always ask ourselves the universal question of "Why" , and we may get the answers, and we may not. yet as we may or may not solve our own problems, more "whys" always turn up even when the solutions have been found. it's an endless circle of questioning and mystery.





And now i'm still asking....




WHY

The volleyball match yesterday, i must say, was nothing short of awesome :)


And the councillors in our school should just shuddup and cheer for our team 'stead of telling us not to jeer. sods.