In a flash, i'm already done with Basic. 15 weeks was longer than the normal 9 weeks for the enhanced batch, but it really seemed even shorter than that. and then suddenly, i realise those 15 weeks of basics mean almost nothing to me, now that i'm part of the naval forces. you see, BMT's really all about firing range and of course the field camp. geee. i'll miss my bunk mates. at least 2 of 'em's got the exact vocation as i have. it's been certainly an emotional and physical experience for me for the last 3 months or so.



Then again, dont think many people truly ( or is it truely ?? urgh. ) enjoyed their stay, 'cept for Delta coy trainees =) i mean.. which other company has a reveille at 0600 hours ?? which other company has commanders who dont bother clearing arms before sending them back into the armsskote room ? which company has instructors who dont even bother checking our field packs every time we book in ? which coy has pizza after field camp ? which coy has....... yep you've got the idea :D we're right beside Charlie coy, and they really suffer man. i mean.. we've got our Routine Orders at 6 almost every evening, while Charlie gets theirs at around 10 ? after 7 we're free till lights out. and almost all the time, we just lean out against the walls eating chips while watching the Charlie dudes get fucked by their sergeants :D oh yea, coincidentally, their so many people in C coy platoon 2 that i know of. there's siu kee and kok leong and ming long, then there're sec school friends like matthew, kenneth tham and shaun. kinda weird, watching all of 'em suffer under sgt damien ( btw, damien's like sooo NOT the dude's name. he resembles an urukai. dead serious. )


I'd confidently tell anyone that my platoon serg's never pumped me more than 200 in those 15 weeks. you cannot believe the dude's an instructor in bmtc. nobody 'cept him conducts stand by areas just by walking past the platoon.


But really, you wont get to see a whole lot of different people till you're in national service. you've got 4As and 2 S paper Ds students from RJ ( who actually think the sky's falling when they've only got an S paper D and another merit for the 2nd S paper ), you've got 19 year olds who're married with children, you've got 25 year olds who've wasted 5 years of their lives in boys' homes and in jail, and then you've got people like.... well, me. it's really interesting. i never realised it till i've met shah. he never made it past sec2, not because he got kicked out for misbehaviour, but just because he couldnt afford the school fees. but bad asses they may seem to our society, they're the ones we can really count on, 'cause they look out for each other. it's actually those 4As and 2 S distinction "scholars" that are the real bastards. failure of our education system eh ? :)


All i hope is i'd enjoy my vocation. really really really really really never expected to get posted into the navy. heard it's quite a rare thing.......







'right, nuff about ns. oh, finally got my comp. dad's reward for my.... unexpected A level results. to say the truth, neither did i expect to do this "well". can't believe i actually got a D for economics, since i skipped half of paper 2, and i never touched anything ( when i say never touched anything, i mean, Never, Touched, Anything ) from micro economics, which means that i fucked the entire of jc1's work. this, an incredible amount of credit should be given to mr teo. are there any better teachers than there are in nyjc ? he's been chasing me since last jan, till i started getting serious in september, and he never gave up on me. i'm touched, honest. ( mr toh's right, i owe him a drink, to the least. basket..... was hoping my block leave fell on a school week, but unfortunately it's now, during the march hols. well, hope i can visit nyjc one of these days, especially before the 2005 A divisions commence. ) then there's the B i've got for history.. considering i only started on southeast asian history just before the prelims. if i remember correctly, i had 45 marks exactly.. an AO pass. i jumped 20 marks. whoopee doo. glad both the hist papers were straight forward 'nough :)


No doubt English's my forte. ( surprisingly i never touched jane austen's Sense and Sensibility. only got notes from the net and books. ) still remember i was REAL UPSET when i fucked my mid years for lit. threw a tantrum in mrs teo's class too, i remember =/ then she gave me a B+, even after researching all that crap from sylvia plath, and giving As to almost everyone else ( even to people like the orc. :P ) she was DEFINITELY playing a psychological game with me. ( once, she told my mom i was her pet student in 03a1. lol. ) then she aced my prelims. well, wadoyaknow ? she actually succeeded in that game. i lost, but ironically i won at the end. and because i won, she won too. lol. get it ? credit to mrs teo too.



And then there was the D7s i got for GP for the mid yrs and prelims. extremely cross with that. still am. i really got scared, so i promised mr toh i'd see 'im. i did before the As... once, actually, 2 days before the GP paper =/ he gave me 30/50, and i still remember. that boosted my moral a little. got a 3 for the As. happy in the sense that i've at least a 3, but a bit upset la. same thing happened for the Os, a 1 for english lit, and a 3 for english language. ah well. i'll still take it :)


Hope i can get an off for a day just to go back to nyjc. haven't thanked my teachers properly yet. drop by to see how the juniors are doing in rugby. heard they've improved, which is no doubt excellent. i'm kinda envious that rugby's now a core cca, receiving the 2nd most amount of funds from the school, just behind volleyball, but still happy that mr tan's sacrificing so much for ny rugby. they beat jjc for us. that's some pride saved from last year's... humiliation. but i still wont want to think of it. i'm praying hard for the guys to win at least the Plate this year, which happens to be it's inaugural year too.




FINALLY finished downloading msn messenger. have to make do with a 56k modem. if my vocation permits, dad might get broadband for me. =)


Okok, gonna play star wars : knights of the old republic 2 soon. cant wait for may 19th........

Finally, my stay in BMT is over. the wait for my post was like waiting for the A level results. i expected to be a driver, a storeman, rifleman or even going to sispec. buuuut whatdoyouknow ?


Naval Combat Systems Operator.













Someone tell me what the f*** is that ? looks like i'll be sailing the seven seas for the next two years...

Y'know, today's book out was my first ever reluctant book out. today was the release of my A level results. today felt like two years ago, when i had to collect my O levels. couldn't sleep properly last night. was prepared to feel the worst, so i wouldnt feel disappointed, again.


Been feeling wave after wave of disappointments for the past few months, didnt really matter if another hit me. buuuut... not this time :)


I expected an A C E at best, but been having doubts as of late before today that i wouldnt even get a pass for my econs, since i've never passed a single major econs paper since my first ever in j1. buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuttttttttt....... ahhhhhhhh HECK :) A B D'll do fine i hope. not bad for a last minute mugger, i'd really have to say for myself. people always told me that last minute studying wouldnt work for you in JC, and i really believed that last year. hey ! i pulled it off. never touched my j1 econs and j1 SEAsian history, and i managed to pull it off :)



Now i just pray that those science peeps stay in science and KEEP OUT OF THE ARTS FAC IN NUS. for fuck's sake, give the arts people the chance they need to continue pursuing the courses they want.






Alritealritealritealritealritealritelarite... lets put all that behind now. its over. JC's over for me, the A levels are over for me. now all i'm worrying is that i don't get a screwed up posting, like to sispec or RP. oh yeah, the SAF Music and Drama Company asked for an audition, it was quite fun, but we dont only sing over there, we have to act and dance too. the acting part's pretty smooth for me, but its the dancing that really killed me. but.... again, whattheheck. Que Sara Sara.



Sleep... lusting for sleep again....................... the army has robbed me not only of my hair but precious sleep as well.................................