Today's my lucky day. after Monster-in-law, I went around bumming in orchard, as usual, with aaron and josh and josh's friend val. we were about to sit down in one corner at coffee bean's, inside wheelock place, and i found a fifty dollar note. so in this case, our drinks were free, and we had change left......................................




Feeling as lucky as I am now... I've got guard duty tomorrow AND sunday too... my weekend burnt next week.... sigh.... not that i'm uncontented with the fifty I found, it's great to find a fifty once in a while, and not that I'm unsatisfied with how lucky I've been so far in life. I just feel like I'm leading a senseless life these days. no goals to reach for, no support, no pillar to rest on, ya know, like... lemme rest for a while kinda thing.

I'm desperate for a holiday. used to take going overseas for granted, and now I'm really pining for a trip. to anywhere, any place but Here.


Wait. I don't know. I know. I'm just desperate for something, but I don't know what. all I know is I don't want to be where I am now.


Yes, I do know that I hate what I'm doing now, but the biggest problem's that I can't do anything about it, and worse still I feel it's necessary. kinda contradicting, but, yyyeaah. and the only comfort that I've got is that I'm not the only one feeling like this. I'm speaking for every national service man. my section commanders from bmt felt the same way, my seniors who're officers now feel the same way, even waifu does, though he's a sec com in artillery. 520 days to ORD.... more than a hundred's passed already, it feels like those 5 months or so just breezed through, but then again i've still got 520 to go.


I seriously need to let off some steam... I've hit rock bottom, again.




-huge sigh- May the Force be with me....

There's this part of me that's filled with sadness after watching episode 3 ( twice this weekend, so far... ) for a variety of reasons :

1. there were only SO many wookie scenes ? and they made such a hoo-hah outta the inclusion of wookies in the movie.

2. why Christensen Hayden ? dude can't act for fuck's sake.

3. mace windu's death was EXTREMELY saddening.

4. he may fool the common man, but lucas aint fooling me ! he cut at least 10 minutes of the film man. no star wars guru like me aint falling for it man. ( but i guess it's just a ploy to re-screen an episode 3 special edition 2 decades from now.. )

5. all those jedi deaths.. i know it was gonna happen, but it's just so sad.














STILL ! It's Star Wars. beat that. you CAN'T. watched it twice so far, gonna watch it a third this coming weekend. cool stuff. but there's two flaws. if you haven't spotted it, i'll spell it out for ya :

1. if you're a true star wars fan, you should be able to remember luke and leia having a conversation about their mother, who's padme. luke cant remember, naturally, but leia said she could, albeit faintly, that she was sad. in episode 3, they were only newborn babies when she dies.

2. luke came out first. but wasnt leia the older sibling ?? but i'm not 100 percent sure of this, but i do remember luke being the younger twin.



But STILL ! it's star wars man. the final episode.. it's damn sad to know it's lucas' final master piece ( yes after all those flaws in the film, it IS still a master piece, as are all star wars films )


The double duel between yoda and palpatine, and obiwan and anakin was wayyyyyyyyyyyy awesome ! reading the books, yoda wouldve won 'im, had he not been so devastated by the thousands of jedi deaths across the galaxy. but then again, if he had won, there wouldnt be any empire.


People, come to think of it, i wouldnt mind trading a bit of freedom for peace and order. the Tarkin Doctrine to inspire fear through the fear of force itself did create a stable society for the galaxy. had the empire not crumbled, the yuuzhan vong would've probably not done so much irreparable damage to the galaxy in the new jedi order books. And chewbacca and anakin solo wouldve still been alive. i'm still pissed at R. A. Salvatore for killing chewie.


It's such a bore that i still dont have cable tv at home. but thank God they've finally got the clone wars cartoon series one on dvd. gonna buy it soon i hope, but there aint much time for me to watch. urgh. sometimes national service is just so fustrating.


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Anakin does not bring balance to the force. Yoda said in episode 3 that the prophecy could've been misread, but that's not entirely correct either. Anakin should've brought balance to it, but he turned away at the very end, and as Yoda said to luke in episode 5, the future is constantly in motion. All thanks to palpatine. ooooh he's such a cunning bastard.


The sith are stereotyped to be the bad guys, but then it wasnt always like that. many a time jedi fell and became sith lords. like qel-droma and exar kun were once jedi themselves, but seduced to the dark side for reasons they thought to be altruistic. guess all these apply to the real world too, huh. power, greed, jealousy, envy, sadness, and even love can lead one down that all too familiar path.


Being a dark side wielder aint that bad some times, actually. palpatine lived an immortal life by transfering his consciousness into his cloned bodies after they've expired. that was how he planned to rule the galaxy forever, until luke foils his plans six years after return of the jedi.



Then again, nah. light triumphs over evil at the very end, all the time.

But not today. i'm booking in yet again. urgh... alright. time to end this entry.


And May the Force be with you, Always !

It's really funny, when I went to the MO last monday to see if the medical board's done reviewing me yet, they seemed to have forgotten to ( typically SAFish ) so the MO gave me another 30 days of Att. B. why cant things ever work on time here, when they're always screaming and hollering for punctuality ? -sigh-



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"It is only shallow people who require years to get rid of an emotion. A man who is master of himself can end a sorrow as easily as he can invent a pleasure." - Oscar Wilde

Picked this up from a book of quotations by Wilde from Parvin's cabin on tuesday. damn good book, I'll say. glenn was saying he doesnt get what the quote means, and why I copied it down. well, told him that I could relate to it, in a very close manner.

I was holding on to something, so strong, so much so that nothing could sway my mind over it, all because I chose to believe in it. it wasn't until a sudden realisation slapped me like a tsunami over my face that I let everything go, and I just did it by telling myself to. it was so so easy, and I thought it would've been tough to. I think it was obdurate of me just to let go of something I thought so important and true, but yet I let go, just so that I could dig myself out of the quicksand I've been stuck inside for so long.



So am I finally master of my emotions, or was it all just a massive jigsaw puzzle of illusions ?


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YES FIVE MORE DAYS TILL THE RELEASE OF STAR WARS EPISODE THREE !



It is THE one episode everyone has awaited for. YES. THE ONE episode. but to all crying SW fans out there, it's also the last, so.. let's all give our thanks that we exist in the era where George Lucas' final masterpiece screens in the cinemas.

All the accumulated anticipation since 1999, when Episode one had its worldwide release. that was in sec one....... then 3 years later in sec four they released number Two. and Now... in 2005, THE FINAL Episode, THE ONE to complete the SW revolution.


Here's to Star Wars Episode 3 : Revenge of the Sith :)






and May The Force Be With You, always.

Jurong JC is retarded. no, Really. they are. not only do they have the same uniform colour as us, they had the same jerseys as us last year. to add on to their immense stupidity, they had to have green rugby jerseys, like my juniors this year. well, they beat 'im this year... at their home ground too.

If the guys beat Sr this thursday, they're gonna enter the semis, which means an auto fourth placing in the A divs. in a way I envy 'em, but I'm bloody happy for 'em too. think it's the first time we're entering the Top Four. all the best, boys. do Nanyang proud.




Alrightttt, got into NUS arts fac. was kinda worried for the last 2 weeks when many of my navy mates were getting calls for interviews from the different universities, and I was wondering whether it was a good idea signing up for only ONE course =X well, actually I tried three in NUS, but the other two were a little........ iffy ? the other two were Law and Economics, and something else.. I forgot what.. but they dont matter any more.




Urg, no idea what to blog about. just felt thise compelling desire to blog, like as if it's an obligation. wonder what joel's doing now.. it's his second day at field camp.. should be preparing to go to bed ( or basha, ha-ha-ha. ) by now. teck's been hospitalised ( again ) for an asthma attack. get better bro. nelly's been back to his usual cheerfulness after going OOC from sispec. happy for 'im. wonder what's kat doing now, haven't talked to my sister that-I-never-had. how's my delta mates doing in their units now ? poor Shum... gone to 3Guards... ooh Sarab's got the guards tag and beret, it looks damn cool. check out his friendster pic. when will I next play a rugby game ?


My 4 and a half days of Liberty's about to be expired in two hours. only one word to describe my feelings right now ----> Siansational.



I'll be back next weekend. oh yeah...



Happy Mother's Day :)

Happy Birthday Nelson ! =)


And Happy Belated Birthday to Nadya too !




And Happy Birthday to Aaron and Dalvin tomorrow !!



Gosh and thiam peng's birthday's this sat. and then there's Mother's Day.



Quite a long weekend. a little more than an hour's time before booking in. let's see, what have i been doing since last week ? well, I wake up, this occurs from monday all the way to friday mind you, after breakfast we head for the sports complex, then lunch, then we do jackshit/domestics till dinner, all except for friday afternoon. had our category one test, which would certify us stepping on board RSN ships. those who passed booked out on fri night, yay =) but the down side was I didnt join the girls for rugby on sat morning, buuuut heck.. it's a book out.

Caught Sahara, went to Muddy Murphy's for a pint of guiness with joel. they've got awesome stout !! those Irish bastards :) but apparently, the guiness here aint nothin' compared to the ones brewed in Ireland. cant wait to try 'em out after ORD.

It was Nadya's birthday chalet at the people's association holiday flats. a bit disappointed that only james, ranjan, daryl, mich and I showed up. but heck, that meant more tequila, vodka and gin for me and ryl :)

Intepreter's a good show, plus nicole kidman's acting in it. it's only flaw is that there isnt any climax. good stuff though.




I'm rushing through my blog. not much of an entry this week, again... my Liberty's about to be expired ! oh it's RSN Day this thursday. happy birthday to the RSN ( does anyone give a flying f ? )