I'm relieved that it's over.. it's one 24 hours too long. I hope I did the right thing =) I'm so sorry...





And Jue Dui Superband's a dumb show without QINOBE. Now THAT'S a band.

You know, I haven't been blogging for a while.. since the 2nd of April, yeah ? Sorry to people, especially bunny... I'm just lazy la :) you know me...



We're at a time ( by "We" I meant us boys who are over and done with JC life and have moved onto NS life.. just waiting for that O, R and D ) of transition, a period known as "Nihil". Directly, it would mean "Nothing", and I think... and I've been thinking about this for quite some time, that, our time in NS is a bloody waste of time. I'm assisting in the organising of Navy functions and I wonder why I am. Our work is not appreciated. And no, a mere "thank you" will NOT do. An "Off" would do fine, in fact, would be a trillion times better than an "ohthankyouverymuchyouallhavebeenagreathelpattheeventandsmilethenwalkaway". But then I don't care anymore... I'm done with my two Extras, and I'm just waiting a couple of months more before the big O, R and D.


Heh. I don't feel as fustrated as I used to be with this life. I've only got a little more than half a year before this phase of my life ends. Then it's the long holiday break ( as if NS is not long enough a break for us already.. ) before I commence on another journey in univeristy. Even now I can't decide whether I should enter in april or join the bulk of the cohort in july. Oh well.. I've still got time to decide... But this isn't the point why I'm typing this entry today.


The point is.. I've been getting through my life now, not because I'm strong enough to, and very ashamed I am of this fact, but because I have the emotional support of loved ones. Without people like John, Teck, Joel, Josh or Aaron... I don't think I'dve been smiling this much... heck, I'm the one who brought this circle together... but in recent times that circle hasnt' really been much of a circle. The reason is, I've been going out with the girl I love, so so much.. that.. I've forgotten that I've had friends... the ones who carried me through this part of my life before I met her. She is the one carrying me through now... and I tell you now I enjoy every single moment of this ride... but should I be doing this ? Letting go of everything else that is my life ? For the one focal point I look to now ? She's the one putting up with all my nonsense, my stupidity, my pigheadedness, but I do love my friends too, and most of all, my mother. If anyone has put up with me for a lifetime, she has. She sure has.


My friends have been there for me too... and I still laugh quietly to myself when I keep thinking about the time when I told john I had retinal detachment and he burst out his usual "HUH" and going all worried. Heh... Teck's also there for me back in my JC days.. heh.. won't say what though.. Aaron... any shit coming outta his mouth's enough to brighten up everyone's day... and Josh... he's always there no matter what, giving every bit of advice he can think with that whore brain of his... heheh...



My dad gave up on his own, because he loved my mother so much, he was willing to do it. I won't say anything, because that is his decision, and there was an entirely different, bigger story to it. Mine is different. Mine has shown me all the love she can give in the world. I wouldn't give that up, because by no means can I repay it back, even if it's meant to be in blood.


And now.. The Main Point of the Big Picture... I've got my studies. That should be number one. Right now... A decision has to be made. And I think I know what it is.